Love

Ever since coming back I have just been just so ridiculously taken by my girlfriend, I think that the South American trip made me realize just how important she is to me and ever since I've been back I have been finding different ways to show her just how much she means to me. Honestly sometimes I feel as if I'm going overboard but really is that a bad thing when it comes to the person who has your heart? I don't think so obviously though I do have built in measures to keep me from getting to corny, but sometimes I may put a toe over the line, and then I'll ask her if it's just to much. Well-let me tell you about my girlfriend, my partner, and my lover. Her name is Michelle and she's from west Philadelphia born and raised, just kidding she is from Massachusetts; I know what you guys are thinking but but that's red sox/patriots country to that I respond with I don't care. Sometimes we argue about which is better, but at the end of the day I only like MA because that's where my baby is from so that's all I have to say about that.


The night before last we took a stroll down memory lane via old pictures, and we talked about our first date, the same butterflies I had then were the same butterflies, I had when we we're talking about it that night. I remember not being able to sleep the night before because I was so nervous. I had only been that nervous before twice in my life, the night I got the award at the Director's guild and the next week when I gave a speech at my premier at HBO.

Now I'm getting off topic because while I'm trying to write this entry my sister's bum ass boyfriend is playing the worst possible rap a smart fan would want to listen too. I mean the garbage they listen to has absolutely no redeeming value and has zero substance. All of it sounds like white noise to me and sometimes when they talk all I hear is white noise because they are no longer speaking a language I recognize. I do not mean to come across as someone who follows the rules of the queen’s English I speak my fair share of slang as well, but I recognize the more you use it. The dumber you appear to be to anybody with half a brain and is not of the project mentality. When I and she were speaking the other night I told her that I was ashamed of the situation I grew up in and that it is playing a large role in why I'm always trying to work or at least due something to help me better my position because I do not want to end up back there, and I really don't want to bring my wife into that situation, that environment stunted me in some many ways that I don't think I will fully understand how until I put alot of distance between me and my past.

Alright to get back to talking about my wonderful girlfriend, When I was making my way back to America there was only two people I wanted to see and one person on my mind almost every minute of everyday. When I was exhausted both mentally and physically it would be Michelle that would tell me everything would be alright, and I would make it home and even when I thought there was no way it was her faith in me that gave me that extra push when I did not have anything in me. Some nights I would on walks through such beautiful scenery and I would think to myself that Michelle would love this, and I wish she were here so I could hold her hand and experience this with her.

This dude is annoying the fuck out of me, one would think that if my headphones are loud enough for you to hear them that it's probably because your music is bothering me and I don't want to hear it or I wouldn't drown it out with my own music. It surprises me how some people seem to not have manners, I mean if I were a guest in someone's house I would definitely walk on egg shells until they let me know it was ok to do certain things, maybe I am being unreasonable but honestly I do not believe it to be so.

I could keep righting about Michelle but she's my love and I'm not sharing nyuh :)