Hey Everybody

I finally decided what to do with this blog, it'll work like this, since the other blog has a theme
Everything else will get put in here, Video's, reviews, observations typical blog stuff. This blog unlike the themed one is not open to the general public so in a sense I know who knows what.

Anyway a lot has happened since my last post, I've grown a bit more jaded, a bit more charismatic and always I'm still fly but what else is new :) now I'm just solo for a bit am I happy about it, in short FUCK NO :) but I will deal with it just as I've dealt with everything before. Some old person is probably in a rocking chair somewhere muttering how stuff like this builds
"character"
I respond to that with I have enough character for four people. It seriously feels like I've reentered the period of my life when things just suck for no reason. Back in grade school and up until I got into boces things sucked because I was in school and everything sucks then! Then I continued a three-year spree of being damn near untouchable; do not be fooled guys I know what success is and now I know what it's like to miss it. I've been places and done things that most people can only dream about. I also know what it's like to be nowhere, somewhere, and anywhere but here.



The first date was an interesting subject to write about in such detail, I genuinely could not wait to get in there and poke around and see what I remembered and what I actually had thought about it. Will it go down as the greatest date of all time? ; I don't think so but it most positively was one of the best moments I have ever had. I ended up getting a lot more questions then I thought I would about it, well questions and other people telling me about their first dates, some were funny, some were sad, other's were romantic, and some were superbad. I answered every email and had a blast doing it! I have no idea how I will approach writing about the first kiss since my memory of everything that led up to it is not as crystal clear as it was for the first date.

"well with everything that is happening why did you start that other blog about memories & moments?" This is a question that came from a few different people, well I had originally planned this in the middle of August so it would have happened regardless, what I did not expect or even foresee was that it could possibly end up being not a celebration of those memories but possibly a tombstone.

I should seriously just tell people to ask questions on the page so they could see how often I have answered the same questions. I'm looking at you old guys an gals that know me. I will tell you the truth, there is now a big hole in my life that I've gotten so used to having filled that its actually effecting me in ways I never thought it would. My infamous fighting spirit is not even a shadow of what it usually is an that's scary. I wish I were a more selfish person then I would simply not care but since thats not how Devaughn "Don't be jealous, Cuz De Won't Tell us" Barden was created *crosses arms*



So what happens now?

Well I'm still in love
Still fighting for every inch (that's what she said, but not what I meant asshole lol!)
Still hoping that love will actually WIN
and finally I'm STILL FLY

Whoops almost forgot, if your reading this and somehow didn't see the other blog, go check it out! I promise it'll get only get better just like this blog http://treumemories.blogspot.com/