Last Post of 2009, What will I say?

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Ok I've held it off for long enough........I am going to Lady Gaga's album

I have avoided it successfully since is came out but now I have no excuse

If you thought hell froze over when I finally listened to 808's and Heartbreaks

Then you're probably thinking the world maybe ending any moment.....Fame Monster

That's right the hip hop is getting put on pause as I listen to the deluxe edition

I have no idea what to expect but all my preconceived notions are out the window.

If you want to know how much of a style change this is for me check out my last fm

http://www.last.fm/user/flyschool My library should be evidence enough that

Alright I have it.....and according to Michelle the deluxe edition is two albums

Ok LET'S DO THIS , ALL MAN HERE, AIN'T 'Fraid of no DISCO

1st song is called Bad Romance, I feel like my room needs a strobe light to enhance this song. I like the hook of this song ra ra ra-ah-ahaha at least that's what I think she says.

2nd song is called Alejandro, it reminds me of that one ace of base song, they had two really famous ones and if you walk into any dollar store and stay long enough you'll hear both of them. The one it reminds me of has the hook that goes I saw the soy? I'm not sure but that should be enough to let you know which song


3rd song Monster:

First thing I noticed in this song were the drums and the ma ma monster. I think out of the songs I have heard so far I could see her featuring a rapper on this one, probably wayne because like him or not he's on everybody's record for some reason.
Although the title would make way more since with him on the track have you seen him?

Lady Gaga: "He ate my heart and then he ate my brain"
sounds like you got a case of zombies and not monster

4th song: Speechless, this song has the honor of being the first gaga song I ever listened to more then once the story is ok but I think it's the instrumentation I like.
I should probably try


Dammit the cursor just erased what i wrote about songs 5 and 6

I liked telephones a lot and beyonce's rapping was pretty meh not bad but not great but considering she is a singer normally she got more flows then wayne lol


7th: So happy I could die
4 stars, I would put this on my ipod

8th: Teeth

I would steal this beat in a second, actually I think this is my favorite song, It doesn't sound like any other song on the album, for some reason I'm hearing way more personality on this track.


Ok finished one album and I have to say although I am still not a fan there are a few songs I would listen too if someone else put them on.

Alright Second album

Just Dance: I know this song from a few commercials, scale of one to ten easy seven

Love Game: I give this an 8.....I am thinking she must have switched producers for this album because so far I haven't heard on synth just pure beats. She can ride a disco stick but she can also ride the fuck out of the rhythm 9/10 Ok there are synths but they blend so perfectly that they don't distract me

Paparazzi: I have a soft spot for songs named paparazzi because they're usually awesome
Damn another 9/10 right here FIRRRRRRRRRRRYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH. The hook is really catchy.

Pokerface: I knew eventually I would have to hear the original version of this. Alright Gaga show me what you got. You win this round

Is it possible that the reason I like this album more then the one i listened to because it's trip hop/house.....it makes a lot of sense actually

I'm just listening to the songs now, i'm tired of listening to her and writing


For the record I don't think I'm a music snob, I'm just not into the club scene so it would make sense that I wouldn't listen to Lady Gaga normally just putting that out there. I liked her first album (the second one i listend to tonight) more because of the breakbeats and just the production in general is was pretty perfect for her style.

Teeth on her second album sounded to me like it should have been on her first album

To be continued


Good night 09

End Of The Decade Post

It's been real



PS
By the end of the next decade I want a family and a career and at least one daughter named Amber

New Years

Sometimes when I open this blog up and begin an entry, like now I feel really sad
not because of anything you guys have done but because sometimes I'll just get really sad or worse I become apathetic and try to ignore everything that makes me feel whether it be happy or sad and apathy is the place I hate most in the world. I know exactly why too but sorry folks I air other people's dirty laundry here not my own. That was such a tease wasn't it :)


This blog has been really great to me these past few days and I just want to thank everyone who has been reading it; Your words have been kind and the discussions have been great. When I opened up this blog the night before Christmas I was really sad.
I wanted to write about something but I didn't want to write about me:So I wrote about YOU the public. You guys make me laugh, you make me cry, you make me see and you make me think. I love you with everything inside of me and somehow I manage to hate you with all of my heart. You all make this worth while and for that I thank you from the bottom of my heart.


To my best friend, Thank you
To my partner: Life would be boring without you
To the person I love most in this world: Thank you for giving me such a gift

I guess since all three, my best friend, my partner and the person I love the most are all one in the same. I can just say Michelle I love you, I can't tell you how much because there is no way I could measure it. If heaven had a height you would be that tall

Happy New Years everyone

D,
Derez
Treu

New Jack Swing ( Title changed to the league of extraordinary assholes!)

Teddy Riley of one of the people credited for creating New Jack Swing had a restraining order placed on him by one of his daughters for attacking them over the holidays. There seriously must be something else in the air beside general merriness. I think for safety reasons we should all wear masks outside just in case this asshole thing is contagious. I think it may already be to late for me though being from a city that is ground zero for overall assholery. If my count is right this is the fourth incident this holiday (that we know about) of a celebrity getting violent this season...guys you're famous RELAX.


According to celebrity gossip site TMZ.com, Riley is said to have stomped and punched his daughters to the point of physical injury. Riley’s 18-year-old daughter, Taja Riley, claims that Riley even “threatened to kill” someone with a Rock Band guitar controller.


Some father way to not use your brain dickhead



Speaking of dickheads anybody else find it funny that after Chris Brown beat up Rihanna he was all over the place but after his album tanked he has all but fallen off the earth :) Chris Brown Karma told me to relay this message to you:"HAH GOTCHA BITCH!" further more I guess he can't handle the consequences of what he did. Honestly if he thought his career was going to survive he is in for a continued surprise.


Jonboy the man that just refuses to leave the headlines, you would figure with Charlie Sheen and Tiger's continued drama that Jon and his bullshit would be swept to the back but nope. He's back and this time he finds himself at the receiving end off a harassment charge filed by Hailey G. The claim states that Jon Allegedly slammed her against the wall in a jealous rage after seeing a photo of her kissing “Celebrity Boxing” promoter Damon Feldman. Does anybody else find it funny that he got upset at that when he was probably cheating the entire time with at least two other people.

Just to catch you guys up, a few days ago Hailey allegedly broke into his house wrecked the place and then put a knife through a pillow with her name on it. Hailey Hailey if your going to go for the gold at least commit fully and embarrass the man, he can get another pillow but he can't escape his general asshole tendencies...follow your heart and expose his evil to the world :)

Hello? Who would you like to speak to? Oh I see, I'll relay the message.
The person on the other end wanted me to tell you Jonboy that this is just the beginning of your ass getting ZAPPED! *sound effect goes here* :)



A New face for Tiger


Well his old face has a lot of egg on it at the moment (you freaky slut) but apparently the day he crashed his SUV into that tree at some point one of his nine irons found the side of his face via his pissed off wife.

Damage sustained from the blow reportedly includes a gash to Tiger's face, a broken bone, bruises and two of Tiger's teeth were almost knocked out




I guess there was no way to have this many assholes in one post without having the king make an appearance; now that I think of it I'm not going to even give that guy the attention he probably craves. Textbook definition of Attention Whore....well the only way those go away is if you don't mention them by name....be gone bitch *clap clap*



Derez Ramada

Is it Me

or did today just seem......not right, I mean it was an okay day but compared to the past three today kind of underperformed wonder what is was and I'm also really tired and sleepy right now. Gossip update happening in the next post

Wow

Good lord no more early morning posting for me I'm like a gremlin no heavy issues after midnight. Today has been pretty nice so far.. well I guess I can go ahead and say the day was nice because as far as I am concerned the day is over. The morning was pretty busy but not in an annoying way just in a hey the sun is shining lets take advantage of it and get things done. I've been in a tremendously good mood as of late.

I can't really place my finger on why but the world just seems to be even more beautiful then it normally is. I am in direct conflict with what I said about new york last night but all those things I said were true but it's almost like the sun brought a new day.

I gave away a hug today, I'm not quite sure why but I did and it made me feel better.
I thought about the hug I got from Michelle and how it made me feel, that's how I want to feel all the time. Grrrrrrrrrrwlll, I'm just happy I'm excited, things don't seem as impossible as they did the day before I am not sure why I feel this way now but I am ecstatic about it. I think something in my changed with my Kanye post, like I evolved as both a person and as a creatist.( new lingo right thurrr)


Thanks to everybody whose been reading and commenting(well emailing, i might as well disable the comments since you all love to email me) this blog feels entirely different to me now. Yes it is still mine but I feel like I am sharing it with a side I never knew I had before in Derez Ramada ( I am a gemini so it makes sense a little)


There won't be a gossip update until later, lets wait for the day to end, Derez gets chattier when the sun goes down. I feel like Dr Jeckly and Mrs Hyde on this blog lol


I am hoping that this blog will help me think deeper and broader about things. I want to use this in a way I that sharpens both my writing skills/style and grammar: I have no idea how successful I will be but I will be trying my hardest to do my very best.

^^ Really proud of how that idea was expressed and written lol, HI FIVE!

Well thats it for now, hopefully my formatting won't auto suck after I post this




D

Embarassed to be a New yorker

Hey I apologize in advance if anything I said offends you, I just let my heart talk in these past two posts and well it's me in my treuest form, I care about people; as much as I tell myself it's a cold world outside, I still offer hugs and warmth to those who need it. Well I guess these are learning posts I hope they don't bother anybody but instead give you some insight into the guy behind the broken glasses and sometimes dirty hands :) I think I am finally sick of New York lol

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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iPpy3aftPHU



I've ridden this train hundreds of times and I've seen this happen countless times.

Two things happen here and I hate them both. Instead of trying to stop the fucking fight you have guys busy instigating the fucking thing and filming it while two women are trying to break it up. The second thing that happens is the black kids hits the woman that is trying to break up the fight and she hits her head on the train door and opens her up. See that right there even if I was minding my own business would have earned him a fight. If you know me then you know the one thing that makes me batshit crazy is when a man puts his hands on a woman and they were fighting of fucking nothing NOTHING. Guy stepped on the kids shoes and the kid plays that I'm tough card you disrespected me bullshit. FUCK THAT DUMB SHIT FUCK HIM AND HIS MOTHER, raising a fucking animal. I know I am out of line right now but you know what he was fucking out of line when he hit that lady. I hope he gets his ass kicked riding the 6 and it won't be by me it'll be by someone just like him that just does not give a fuck fucking douchebag.

Michelle came into the city the other night to catch her connecting bus to VA and I was so excited to have her finally come to my favorite place in the world and while I was walking over to the port authority I started to think please please please god don't let anything happen while she is here just let everything go smoothly.


We're waiting on line to get bag a heavy tag for the bus and this lady announces that she's been traveling all day and she needs to cut ahead of everybody so she can make her bus etc etc, I feel for the lady but the line wrapped around twice and it wasn't even to board the buses. Somebody eventually quietly let her skip them. We get the bag tagged leave the port authority for a bit walk around bryant and I decide we should go back because it's super cold and I want Michelle to already be where she is supposed to be when it's time to start boarding the buses. Well we get back and the line is twice the size it was when we left, we're standing there pretty much enjoying each others company and the time we have together and I hear this guy get loud and he's cursing out some lady and I'm like here we fucking go. He's spewing motherfuck this, fuck that and charging back and forth trying to either scare this lady or getting ready to hit her; Mind you this is happening on one of the heaviest travel nights of the year for the port authority so there was a few hundred people down there to witness this. I automatically go into protect not only me mode but Michelle mode.

She was interested in the ruckus and I could not blame her, I was interested as well but I know the randomness of the crazy people here and that douchebag could have pulled out a gun and I didn't want him to remember a smiling face at his expense.

The nypd is down there to pacify his dumb ass and he chills the fuck down because everyone knows you don't fuck with the nypd they can shoot you and be caught on tape and still walk (btw FUCK THEM TOO) after everybody calms down and settles in there conversations I'm thinking this line is really long but I am here with my favorite person in the world, god let her get on the bus with no more crazyness. Well I forgot that god goes on break in nyc between the hours of 10 pm and 5am. A few feet away from us maybe about twenty a scuffle breaks out because someone cuts someone else *eyes roll* Pro tip: don't cut in line if you're in new york you won't get away with it, you will be cursed out,laughed at and sent to the back of the line.

So the scuffle is between a puerto rican lady and a black guy, it sounded like the same pair from before but I couldn't see that clearly and I'm glad I couldn't but I did see the boys in blue show up and instead of shutting up and cooling out like a normal person, the lady gets loud and starts going off about some bullshit. I just wanted to say "lady shut the fuck up, we're all tired and you're pissing us ALL off"


If I could have just said to Michelle, lets just go home I would have did just that
I kind of jokingly told her that being down there kind of brings out the new yorker in me. I am proud to be a new yorker but sometimes I am really embarassed.


We're not all assholes, I don't know why we are the way we are but at least for me
I have a really big heart and a smile just as big. I help when I can where I can.

I know this doesn't mean an awful lot but on behalf of everyone who is decent in ny
I apologize for all of the ugliness and coldness we sometimes give to visitors and each other.

Signed,

A New Yorker

808's & Hot Plates

Kanye West and Amber Rose did their part in spreading Christmas cheer this past weekend with community service. The rapper/producer and his girlfriend joined volunteers to assist in serving lunch to the homeless on Saturday.

"It's just important [to give back] when you're very blessed," said West on the matter.
West volunteered for the Los Angeles Mission, a non-profit organization dedicated to helping homeless in the city's "Skid Row" district for over 70 years. Their services are not limited to providing food, as they offer employment, transitional services and rehabilitation to those with substance abuse issues.

"[It's nice] to spread your blessings and take time out, especially during the holidays, to appreciate people who never get that appreciation," continued the superstar. "It makes me feel really good to come out here, [with] my family, and I just thank ya'll [the Los Angeles Mission] for allowing us to be apart of this."

Thumbs up Kanye&Amber; maybe that is what made our resident hip hop snob actually check out the album. Treu is one of those "if it ain't hip hop it ain't right" types.
So when Kanye started experimenting with synths and techno and it was clear he was leaving his old style behind Mister bark bark stopped listening to his music entirely.

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I know everyone has their opinions on Kanye and think that he is an arrogant asshole and for the most part he is I will not kid you he's as arrogant as they come but he knows that he is indeed one of a kind and we all know it too. I think Kanye leads a pressure filled existence and a lesser person would have crumbled . When you're a genius life is anything but simple because you see things and interpret them in ways that most normal folks could not even begin to fathom. Its easy for people to label you as eccentric when they don't understand the things you do or why you do them; it makes sense to you though and you hope that eventually it will make sense to everyone else. I feel like I can speak on this issue because I am the same kind of person.

My Heart is literally on fire, my adrenaline is through the roof and I just want to create. I want to write a novel, dance the waltz and sing an opera; Recite an epic poem. Grab your hand and run away with you in a world that's pure magic, where my imagination bleeds into reality and we're walking around in a dream my dream. I want to show you the world the way I see it, give you my headphones and let you hear the sounds as I hear them and see what it's like to live like I live and love like I love.


Kanye loves to do what he does and I love to do what I do
I'll never stop and neither will he; we'll keep showing you.
If I can bring a smile to your face and he can make you tap your feet
Then maybe just maybe we understand each other after all


That is how real art and creativity is to me

Good luck Kanye maybe one day I will get to shake your hand


Devaughn

Everybody Hates Micheal

And with damn good reason, he is a pompous woman beating douchenug and on top of that an attention whore. LiLo has gone on record as saying he's a woman beater and now his wife(ex?) is also on record saying the same thing and as much as he would like us to believe they are sullying his good name, I call bullshit on him and his good name especially with his latest story. So apparently seven months ago his wife/girlfriend WHATEVER hit him and she was out of her mind on drugs (according to him) and he waited until till now after she has already gotten him arrested to try and bring up charges....seems kind of bitchy to me and a little convenient wouldn't you say

Micheal Lohan represents some of the worst qualities of HUMANS, can he be reformed?
Nope, usually I'll say anybody that wants to change can change but lets be serious.
He can't change because it's not in him to be a decent human being, he's fucked up at the core. I would even go as far as to say that even if he miracoulsly became the father that LiLo needs/needed or wants/wanted it would be only a matter of time before he reverted. Even the proudest sinner begs for forgiveness when they have no one.

Some of that also applies to Jon as well he's not as far gone as Micheal but if he doesn't switch lanes he will be on that same high way soon enough and I do not think that's a road he can handle.



Der

The Derez Experiment

It's been pretty cool to write a gossip style blog; it's almost like being an actual news reporter just minus the camera and the crazy people that walk into the shot just so they can be seen (I'm talking about you crazy black guy) I've really been getting into it these past few days, a lot more then I thought I would honestly. I'm not sure If I want to keep Derez around or not but I think this blog has a lot more potential with him floating around and commenting on various goings on in the world of glitz and glam.

**** Hope the picture is in the right place, if it isn't i apologize******

Who would have thought the most downloaded movie of 2009 would have been the Star Trek movie. I am not much of a trek fan but even I have to admit the movie was pretty good and it had the best opening I've seen in maybe five or so years so I was pretty impressed. Other movies on that people ripped off included, Transformers: Revenge Of The Fallen, The Hangover, Twilight, Harry Potter And The Half-Blood Prince and X-Men Origins: Wolverine.

Out of all those movie I have only seen 3 and I did download them so I can't take the high ground lol. Twilight sucked balls, a vampire story gone gay is how I would describe it. I mean come on they sparkle in sunlight. When I was a little kid vampires did three things Taught us ABC's, sold us chocolate cereal and exploded in sunlight...good times.


Half blood prince was actually a good watch; would have loved to watch that in a theater.
Deathly Hollows will probably kick ass on about 93 different levels since it's the finale.

X-men: Origins was better then I expected it to be but still manage to not be as good as the original X-men movie. The story was decent a good way to get people interested in the character. My biggest peeve with the movie is that they fucked up deadpool. The sarcastic ninja with a mouth so big they sewed it shut lol


Nick Cannon is NOT funny in anyway shape or form and I do not find him entertaining in the least. He is pretty much a poor man's Wayne Brady IE the media uses him when they want some color but they want non threatening. Actually he is more like will smith during the fresh prince era except cannon will never be that fresh no matter what he does.


The Obama's went on vacation to Hawaii and can I say that Michelle was looking classy as always and I am not saying that because I have a thing for classy women named Michelle. Yes I am talking about you ;) I want to go to Hawaii one day, see the beaches and maybe deep sea dive and take pictures underwater, Hope they have fun, I also hope he figures this economy thing out or at least gives me money so i can figure it out.

Oh and I might not know a lot about fashion but I know that J'Loprobably shouldn't have worn this

Tyra

Color me surprised, this morning I found out via another excellent gossip blog that Tyra announced that this season will be the last of her talk show; she is planning on focusing more on her production company. There has only been one other host that has been able to do this successfully and you should know her name without me even mentioning it. I and a lot of other people thought that if anybody could come close to the reigning queen that it would be Tyra, I mean clearly she has everything needed to take over plus she is a regular person. The regular person thing I think is important because with the world the way it is people do not really feel particularly close to mega billionaire's like the host who shalt not be named but I have the feeling Tyra would be the same with or without money so that is one of the reasons I am proud to say I am a fan.

What makes The Tyra show different is there is no age or gender split, she has the youth crowd and the adult crowd both males and females are watching her show. The same cannot be said for the queen who really only gets views from old ladies and republicans lol.

(I don't know if that is entirely true but then again she doesn't like inner city anything unless it will give her a photo op or you're the flavor of the month)


Where will Tyra go from here? Honestly anywhere she wants too because she has that much of a following; Although I do think she's ending the wrong show. America's Next Top Model is pretty stale and has been that way for a long time. I've jokingly said that the easiest way to shake the show up would be to turn it gay for a season.

Actually quite a few shows would be better if they went gay for a season. Can you imagine how awesome Tool Academy would be if it was gay, drama drama drama and ratings through the roof. If I was a Vh1 executive I would have already pitched that idea ( no homo uh oh)


More Gossip later

Derez

Awake

I can't sleep and this super sized know on my head is making it impossible to sleep for more then thirty minutes. So here I am talking to you and it's been a little lonely these past few days. I've been trying to fill the space with gossip, music and other things but its really not the same. The world doesn't revolve around you but you do make everything better ( not in that cocaine kind of way lol) I miss you a lot


De

Mary J's Right cross

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pK5gMi1AxDg&feature=player_embedded

What is it about the holidays that makes people so crazy? Well this one kind of took me by surprise. Mary J Blige AKA the queen of R&B was caught on tape Chris Browning her husband. If the I embedded the link correctly you can see the video directly above this.


The footage depicts the songstress in a verbal argument with husband Martin "Kendu" Isaacs. Mary then proceeds to strike Kendu before being restrained by an entourage. There is no word as to whether or not the video clip starts at the beginning of the fight, or if there had been previous contact before recording commenced.

According to unidentified party guests, the couple, who were married in 2003, began arguing after Mary accused her husband of flirting with the cocktail waitresses present.

The NY Post also reported “[Mary] turned to him and was screaming, 'You're not going to ruin my night,'" in accordance with a statement made by an alleged witness. “They got up in each other's faces before someone tried to separate them, at which point [Mary] shoved the guy aside, pulled back and popped [Kendu] in the face. She was yelling at him, 'What are you going to do, Chris Brown me?'"

Earlier in the week, Mary's publicist Kerynne Tencer released the following statement about the quarrel, “People lie and don’t know what they’re talking about. They’re as happy as can be. They’re spending the holidays together with their three children. Everything’s great.”

Now that the footage as been exposed, Mary nor her publicist have came forward to release a statement.


To say I am surprised would be an understatement Mary to me has always been such a classy lady and even after this she will continue to be. As always we do not know the whole story, we just have a video of an angry Mary so until she makes a statement, I'm just going to think that she just had a human moment and was pissed off and reverted back to Yonkers Mary and not Queen Bee Mary



Treu

Hell Hath No Fury, Like a woman scorned

Like a woman's scorn for sega!!!! ---- Treu

Are you happy with yourself for ruining my title with your stupidity?
You are officially on parole hip hop boy now begone and let the adults talk.


Jon Gosselin returned to New York after spending Christmas in Pennsylvania with his eight children to discover his apartment had been burglarized.

"[He] called me this afternoon . . . when he entered his apartment in Manhattan and was horrified, disheartened and saddened to observe the devastation of his furniture, clothing and personal belongings, which were apparently slashed with a butcher knife by a very troubled and sick perpetrator," Gosselin's lawyer, Mark Jay Heller, said in a statement Saturday. "Jon immediately contacted me and facilitated the able assistance of the New York City Police Department who immediately dispatched an experienced detective to Jon’s apartment."


According to Heller, Gosselin, 32, discovered a note that was "speared" into his wooden dresser. Heller also says that Gosselin's television, CD player, coffee maker, a Nintendo Wii game and dishes, pots and pans were stolen from the New York apartment, while some of his clothing, luggage and bedding was slashed.

"The greatest damage from this vicious, mean spirited and heartless crime was perpetrated not on Jon’s property and possessions, but on Jon Gosselin himself, who experienced a traumatic, emotional, roller coast ride having just shared a joyful family gathering with his children during their Christmas," Heller's statement read.


A few days ago Hailey G moved out of Jon's upper west side apartment and everything seemed to go smoothly that was until this morning when Jon came home to find that a hurricane name Hailey had touched down. Reports are that his place was ransacked and he also found pillow with a knife stuck in it. Hailey tsk tsk if you're going to do something like that at least do not make it so obvious. If I were her I would not have done that instead I would have hit him where it hurts him the most; his pockets. The stuff in the italics does not mention Hailey I read about the note via Perez

You see allegedly Hailey's parents sent her money to use for her half of the rent but Jon pocketed the cash. Jon is obviously hurting for money so it is not that far of a jump to think that he would do such a thing. So instead of trashing a place and leaving a note, why not take your stuff, serve him papers, flip him off and see him in court :)


Jon was out of town as he was spending christmas with the kids + one for him to bad it's just a drop in the bucket but I am sure the kids probably enjoyed it.


Derez Ramada

Christmas movie or Movie that happens During Christmas

Gossip Break

Treuest here Derez is off being nosey and will be back on monday, so it's just me

Right now I'm watching one of my favorite movies of all time Die Hard and I thought I would share with you guys and girls how I came to the conclusion that Die Hard is not a Christmas movie

This has been up for debate for almost a week and a half now and at the center of the debate is whether or not Die Hard is a christmas movie. At first I thought it was because it has a christmas theme but after talking with Michelle about it one night;

Ok if you ask most people if Die Hard is a christmas movie they are going to say yes and it is easy to see why, the movie starts with a christmas party and the main character arrives in a limo playing the Run DMC classic "A christmas in Hollis"
So BOOM christmas movie.....well not so fast those are the only two times in the entire movie when christmas plays a role in the movie ( outside of the ending)

I may be reaching here but christmas is more of a character/hostage then it is a theme and that is what makes me say Die Hard is NOT a christmas movie.

Actually now that I think about it Die Hard is as much as a christmas movie as Harry Potter is. I think I may have crossed a line here but they have christmas in pretty much every potter movie and it is entirely separate from the plot for the most part just like it is for die hard ( excluding the fact that McClane is there to see the kids/wife) so with that said I'm also going to say that Harry Potter is not a christmas movie ( the earlier one's)


Hmm maybe this could be an annual post for x-mas lol

Well thanks for reading

Your Hip Hop Correspondent

Treu

Fortune cookie

"Home is where your heart is"

Am Edition: Tiger And Charlie

This is for you early risers and Night Hawks,


Unless you have been living under a rock for the past two weeks you know about the Tiger situation. Well it turns out his sponsors are not going to stand behind him since he tarnished his image. Hmm texts cost about five to ten cents right, I wonder how many he had to send in order to lose a three million dollar contract and other lucrative deals. I am sure he will still be the face of the EA golf series and that will make him a pretty penny but with the way the economy is going his pockets will feel the sting one way or another. For the official write up check this out

Charlie Sheen got arrested yesterday morning for domestic abuse in Aspen, I wonder if that is where all the celebrities go to spend christmas because the day before Robert De Niro almost got hit by a car as he was crossing the street out there. I am not one to speculate but Mr Sheen does have that "I just came from the five a clock free cocaine give away" look in his eyes so yeah...... I can believe he lost his mind,shit look at his picture and tell me he does not look a little crazy

( The picture is in the link in the previous paragraph)

This has been the early edition

Derez

Upper's and Downer's Xmas Style, oh and some hip hop stuff

Lets start off with a downer some of you may not agree with this but a few of you will.


American Idol is back for season nine hundred and fifty-seven; I'm sorry but the magic is gone and unless it manages to find it again and make compelling tv I doubt it will regain what captivated the world. If you're interested in seeing it the new season starts Jan 12th and Paula Abdul ( Two steps forward, two steps back, we come together cause op-o-sites attract) will be replaced by Ellen Degeneres and the season will also feature rotating guess judges, I'm sure it will be a train wreck but I am sure we will get to enjoy some wtf moments from the judges :) One of the guest judges is Mary J Blige am I the only one that thinks choosing a talk show host over an R&B legend to be utterly retarded?


Here is an upper
(This is for the Paula fans in us all)



I have no idea where this falls so I will let you decide for yourself

Yesterday famous homewrecker Hailey G ( Jon's ex girlfriend) moved out of his upper west side apartment in NYC. They broke up sometime in October after she figured out that Jon was running the same con on her that she helped pull on Kate. Karma is a bitch but I hope she learns from this or at least writes a book :) Since that is the popular thing to do these days. If you have been following the news surrounding Jon and Kate then you already know that they recently made their divorce final. I bring that up because I am confused about something and maybe you will have caught it too but for you slower readers out there here it is. Jon has gone on record publicity citing his concerns about not being able to make any money because of the situation he is in. Does anybody see where I'm going with this? I'll go a little further how does someone with no money afford to live on the upper west side of NYC? If what he claims was true there should have been two moving trucks out there, one taking Hailey's stuff and one taking his stuff since he has no money to live.

This part is an upper though and Jon did this all to himself so I do not feel sorry for him in anyway. when the divorce was finalized he got hit with a MASSIVE child support penalty (paying for kids is not a penalty, I just could not think of the proper word) It did not take Jon long to figure out that there was no way he could make those payments outside of robbing a bank or going to jail (both are speculation on my part) Well here lies the bigger problem for him, due to his general douchebagginess before the divorce was finalized and he knew he would have to pay far far out the ass he went and breached his contract with TLC and that ultimately led to TLC taking action against him and making it so he could not work outside of the terms he agreed to in his contract. Fast forward to now, he has child support and no real way of paying it. POW! Karma BITCH.


He's officially divorced.

He owes a lot in child support payments.

His most recent girlfriend wants nothing to do with him.

For all these reasons and more, Jon Gosselin is having a holiday season to forget. According to The National Enquirer, this is exactly what he may be trying to do... forever.

“Jon appears to be at the end of his rope. He feels that he has nothing left to live for,” a friend told the tabloid. “Jon feels betrayed by anyone he’s ever trusted. He’s drowning in a sea of debt, yet he blames everyone except himself for his problems."

That anger is allegedly directed at TLC, the network that made Gosselin all his money in the first place. “Jon says TLC is still preventing him from pursuing other high-paying offers as a ‘vendetta’ for pulling the plug on Jon & Kate Plus 8. He claims they’re out to ruin him,” the insider said.

The unemployed douchebag owes $90,000 to Hailey Glassman, along with $13,000 per month in child support to Kate Gosselin. His anonymous pal says Jon may soon get evicted from his NYC apartment.





Hippity HOP




There isn't anything worth while to talk about unless, you guys are interested in hearing about underachiever extraordinaire "Maino" made a song called "Tiger Get Em"

"Whether a person is in the limelight or a person is just a regular dude, sometimes we fall victim...for other women. I like women. I'm sure most other men like women. They crucifyin' him for having extramarital affairs, but I don't think he did anything different than most normal men do," Maino explained

I don't want to come off as high and mighty but that line he said about crucifying tiger for extra marital affairs is complete bullshit. Marriage might not mean as much as it used too but to some of us it's the promise that's important and once you break that how do you expect to not be pretty much nailed to the cross. Furthermore that I'm a man, I like women shit is tired, if you can't keep a commitment don't enter into one.
My above statement was geared more towards the younger guys and the douchebag older ones. Now if you're in love and one day the magic is not there anymore, why drag it out you will only end up hurting the other person more, maybe that's what happened with Tiger. Anyway that's all I have to say as far as hip hop is concerned. Grow the fuck up people.----------Treu




Derez Ramada

HipHop Correspondent- Treu

Brittany

A few days ago Brittany Murphy Who I Remember from clueless as Tai, Luanne from king of the hill and Sin City died of an apparent heart attack shocking everyone. Since her death a few sources are claiming it was an overdose and like any good husband/ partner he is defending his late wife. It actually makes me quite sick that media is all over this man his wife has just died and they won't even give the man time to grieve.

"I'm confident it wasn't an overdose," he told The News. "She was not a drug addict."
He confirmed Tuesday that investigators found and took away a bevy of prescriptions - " but nothing else" - and slammed speculation that the 32-year-old beauty was abusing illegal drugs. "There's no question that's rubbish," said Monjack, a British photographer and screenwriter who married the "Clueless" star in 2007.

"The attacks on me, the attacks on my wife and suggestions that she was anorexic and drug addicted, it's like, look at the (recent) photographs," he said.
"Look at that smile. That's not the smile of an anorexic or drug addict or someone in a bad marriage. That's someone who was content with her life." .



The world is full of people who thrive on the misfortunes of others but the only part of society that thrives on it is the media/entertainment industry. We live in a time where everyone knows everything about everybody. We know about Tiger's indiscretions and we've seen Jon (from Jon and Kate Plus 8) fall from grace and have almost every second of it documented for our viewing pleasure. I am not sure what this says about us as a whole but it is really making me rethink my part in the world of media.

Derez

Happy Christmas, My first and last gossip blog (unless this doesn't suck and gets a comment)

LiLo?! If that caused you some confusion you probably don't follow gossip and as a certified hip hopper I automatically assumed that LiLo was in reference to the disney cartoon character.
Apparently if you guessed that as well you would have been wrong wrong wrong just like de de de.

LiLo = Lindsay Lohan and she's been someone I have been keeping up with sporadically. At first I did not care in the least about her OoooOoo poor rich girl she parties every night, life must be so unbearable! Well I did think that before I learned that there was more to it then that. Her dad is the definition of attention whore an that's just on top of everything else IE being a horrible human.



So anyway LiLo's sister has a party in NYC to celebrate her 16th birthday and the big story is that Lohan debuts her new boyfriend. I've seen the guy he kind of looks like chevy chase around the eyes, similar bone structure I think. If i wasn't feeling lazy i'd find pictures for comparison. Anyway the perez write up is below

Model Adam Senn met the entire Lohan clan when he arrived on the arm of Lilo to celebrate Ali Lohan's birthday.

Word is things went smoothly for Adam and Lilo, who were very affectionate all evening and were well received by everyone at the party. We also hear that Adam got his first taste of the Lohan crazy when mom Dina Lohan got into a huge argument with Ali and the birthday girl stormed out. Witnesses say, with much surprise, that it was actually Dina who couldn't control herself with the booze, not Lindsay. One recalled:

"Dina let loose, drank a lot and was much more messy than Lindsay. It was shocking."

So ummmm maybe both parents are attention whores? *gulp* that wasn't a drink or a penis lol although me writing about LiLo is making me question my sexuality. Anyway I wonder if there ever will be a period when that family can just keep everything on the up an up, I know daddy dearest can't hell maybe mommy can't either..guess it's up the girls if they want a decent family.


Now this next piece, I was made aware of a few days ago but since I didn't really know who it was I didn't pay much attention to it; If you're a fan of America's next Dance Crew you probably already know the allegations but for those who don't check out the write up courtesy of hip hop dx


Celebrity choreographer on Fox’s popular reality dance competition “So You Think You Can Dance” and MTV's “America's Best Dance Crew" judge, Shane Sparks, was arrested Friday morning at his Hollywood home on felony charges of child molestation.

Shane, whose government name is Melvin Sparks, was charged with six felony counts of committing a lewd act on a child under the age 14, incidents which allegedly occurred between 1994 and 1997. He was also charged with two counts of oral copulation of a child under the age 16, which is said to have occured between 1995 and 1997. The report concludes that the acts were "with the intent of arousing, appealing to, and gratifying the lust, passions and sexual desires of the said defendant and the said child."

KTTV Fox News 11 in Los Angeles reported that the Emmy nominated dancer/choreographer, who is now 40 years old, is said to have met the alleged victim, who is rumored to be 10 years his junior, at Millennium Dance Complex in Los Angeles where the child was one of Shane's students.

He is currently being held on $590,000 bail. No comment has been made on the arrest from Shane or any representatives on his behalf.

I say if it's true bury his ass under the jail, there are two types of guys I do not respect, those who hit women and those who mess around with kids. Fame should not grant those who have it immunity; I personally believe that people that use their fame for such things should be punished even more harshly. Most people remember the R Kelly thing and I swear he only got off because he could sing his ass off. Come on now, they had the man on TAPE and he somehow walked.

Btw Merry christmas Chris Brown your album went double plastic :) serves you right you BIIIIIIOOOTCH



Derez Ramada

I almost forgot about this it's been a while since I've actually just sat down and wrote for the hell of it. if you read this blog during it's active state I'm I haven't been very active with it. So like an old friend you haven't seen in a while you're probably wondering just what I have been up too; Well I'd rather not talk about where I've been or where I'm going but I will tell you where I'm at.

I'm in a state of disbelief but the fog is lifting and I am starting to see things in their true state.

Someone told me, you have all the pressures of someone that is successful without being sucessful; At first I laughed it off but then I thought about it and it made sense. I work twice as hard for half as much. I think it's either a testament to the heart and determination I have or flat out stupidity I have for absorbing so much punishment, I think the line between insanity and greatness is a thin one. I can see the craziness in what I chose to do and I can also see the potential for greatness.

I'm a big city boy that loves a small town girl,
a big city boy that wants to show a small town girl the world.
A big city boy taken by her small town girl charm.


Are you laughing? I'm not but I'm sure somewhere someone is, the world's a funny place



I'll be back

I Put the YO in YO-Ville

I've been wanting to take a deeper look into this particular game for a while and right off the bat, this is not a game at least not in a gamer's sense Yoville is more of a giant chatroom. So if your looking for something thats going to satisfy your E-Bloodlust this is not the game for you; However if your looking for an ok way to kill time and bullshit with other people who are at work
this might end up being your ticket out of your cubicle / office that your mind needs to get through the day. Now that we got that out of the way, let's see what YoVille is about



Yoville in its basic form is a mmorpg except you don't fight anything and you kind of just stand around and find things to do......similar to second life (review coming of that shortly) My girlfriend introduced me Yoville on myspace, I played with her for a little while, and just could not get into it, She's a damn pro though. I would play sporadically on facebook but mostly when she was on, and I'd checkout her super sweet crib. When you start out in yoville you live serial killer style with no plush amenities, no wonder I would always spend more time at her house then mines

My character's name Is The Funk Doc, his one goal in life to bring funk to the citizens of YO-Ville, He's wearing a barrel and a pair of cowboy boots, lets hit the town and see whats happening, you guys ready? Of course you’re ready! So I leave my room and immediately I'm brought to a lobby of some sort .Since I have a few friends , you can choose to visit their apartments from here. Usually there are a few of them standing idle like zombies, nothing to exciting here. Lets get out and be seen baby! So I'm out on the mean streets of yoville armed with a seemingly endless supply of water balloons a smile and spurs I set off!

Destination, ADVENTURE!!!!!!!

The streets are completely empty.....a little to empty for yoville....I walk into the gym
And behind the counter is a typical 'bro' shaved head, tank top, and tats. I inquire about what I should get for my house he suggests the basic gym, I think it over for a few seconds and chose to buy it. I figure if you’re going to be wearing nothing, but a barrel you'd better be in damn good shape for all the running you may end up doing.

I leave the gym 30 coins poorer but with a sense of I'll totally kick your ass if you talk about my barrel shirt or my lady, feeling good I take a stroll on down to the casino. I'm young, naked, and on the town why not spend some cash and see whether I am as lucky as I feel. If you try walking into a real casino with only a barrel on you'd better be famous or you’re in for the ass kicking of a lifetime (if you happen to be Jim and Roy is working the door) So I play the penny machine and lose big time...well not big time; I just have no idea how to make money yet and somehow I don't think you can be a stripper or a cop (Thanks a lot high school guidance counselor you were way off dude) I don't stay very long because there's not much to do unless you like to lose money. I guess by looking at my character you would probably guess he doesn't actually care about money or the woes of society, just give a barrel that fits and boots that jingle when he walks and he is A-ok :)

So the doc's funk meter is running low from all that strutting around town like God's greatest gift to the funk minded yo-villiean; The Funk Doctor heads to Vinny's to grab a bite to eat and to also check out the decorum. I walk through the doors and who do I see behind the register? Bro from the gym store.......the economy must be horrible if he's working two jobs at the same time. I order a salad. The Funk Dr is a vegetarian unlike your sexy narrator. The conversation is severely lacking, The Dr devours the salad, it's almost like he hasn't eaten for weeks (off the record more like a month since I didn't know you had to feed them)

Now with his hunger fed the Dr searches for what every good dr searches for people that need him more than he needs them. Uh oh the funky one's ears have heard something he likes....The heart thumping bass music! He dances his barreled covered ass right pass the bouncer and right into the strobe lighted heaven. The club is a bust and the only good drug they have is coffee also you’re never going to believe who works at the club, Bro from the gym, and diner, figured he would give me a discount but apparently in the land of YO is coins, ass or coffee


To Be Continued/ CONTINUED SUCKAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

After a full fifteen minutes of clubbing, I figure it is time to start searching for a job.
Instead of saying hello it's customary to launch a water balloon at whomever you are trying to communicate with, I guess many people were trying to talk to the funk doc since he was pelted with about thirty in the span of sixty seconds. After another hundred or so I'm told by the person I like the most in the world, that there is a ton of ways to make bank on yoville and if I had listened to her I would know that.

Well before I decided to review it Yoville did not seem like much a big deal but after doing a little research in the usual places I found that there are just as many ways to cheat and make money/ earn yo points as there are to do it legitimately. Since I want this to be an honest review I won't be using any of them although I have confirmed that they do exist, and it makes the game way more interesting but it also disrupts the balance of the game which ruins the experience for everyone,

I make it to the sweets factory, nobody is outside so I go in and a few oven's are on
Since it was my first time in the factory, I went through a brief tutorial and then that's when things stopped being delicious and started getting tasty! The premise is simple, you bake stuff you get money sound simple enough right? Well just like in real life if your not paying attention to the oven your food burns (or fries HEY OH!) I end up making a decent amount of money but it is super boring, I'm guessing that if you have people in there with you also baking its probably a little more fun, if not engaging. It's around this time that I seriously have to focus on actually stick with the game as the clock ticks it starts to bore me more , there is no real action to speak off unless decide to get into an E-Peen (she's really rubbing off on me) and get into a pointless but potentially really funny flame war, the net is for slandering others anonymously facebook somewhat takes the fun out of that :)

This is a game that requires some serious patience to enjoy, and I have the patience of a saint when it comes to most things and I've definitely tackled a few dozen dungeon crawlers so I think in the end this is not my type of game. I could not help but think I had played the same game before, but better and it turns out I have it's called the sims. The only difference is you cannot play the sims online, and they talk their own crazy language. So I guess this is the part when I rate the game

Replayability: This is entirely subjective depending on the type of gamer you are
I give this game a two for the sheer fact I barely play it

Presentation: This is where this game shines, it is 2D but it doesn't try to be something it's not and that ends up working very well for YO-ville. One thing that did bother me about it is when you create a yoville character. Your options are very limited. The selection of accessories is nothing great either, but you can't argue with the price of the game FAAAAAAAAAAAA-REEEEEEEEEEEE

Music: It loops, it loops. It loops 1/10


So my score for yoville is a 3/10

Final thoughts

NONE,ZERO :)

Hey Everybody

I finally decided what to do with this blog, it'll work like this, since the other blog has a theme
Everything else will get put in here, Video's, reviews, observations typical blog stuff. This blog unlike the themed one is not open to the general public so in a sense I know who knows what.

Anyway a lot has happened since my last post, I've grown a bit more jaded, a bit more charismatic and always I'm still fly but what else is new :) now I'm just solo for a bit am I happy about it, in short FUCK NO :) but I will deal with it just as I've dealt with everything before. Some old person is probably in a rocking chair somewhere muttering how stuff like this builds
"character"
I respond to that with I have enough character for four people. It seriously feels like I've reentered the period of my life when things just suck for no reason. Back in grade school and up until I got into boces things sucked because I was in school and everything sucks then! Then I continued a three-year spree of being damn near untouchable; do not be fooled guys I know what success is and now I know what it's like to miss it. I've been places and done things that most people can only dream about. I also know what it's like to be nowhere, somewhere, and anywhere but here.



The first date was an interesting subject to write about in such detail, I genuinely could not wait to get in there and poke around and see what I remembered and what I actually had thought about it. Will it go down as the greatest date of all time? ; I don't think so but it most positively was one of the best moments I have ever had. I ended up getting a lot more questions then I thought I would about it, well questions and other people telling me about their first dates, some were funny, some were sad, other's were romantic, and some were superbad. I answered every email and had a blast doing it! I have no idea how I will approach writing about the first kiss since my memory of everything that led up to it is not as crystal clear as it was for the first date.

"well with everything that is happening why did you start that other blog about memories & moments?" This is a question that came from a few different people, well I had originally planned this in the middle of August so it would have happened regardless, what I did not expect or even foresee was that it could possibly end up being not a celebration of those memories but possibly a tombstone.

I should seriously just tell people to ask questions on the page so they could see how often I have answered the same questions. I'm looking at you old guys an gals that know me. I will tell you the truth, there is now a big hole in my life that I've gotten so used to having filled that its actually effecting me in ways I never thought it would. My infamous fighting spirit is not even a shadow of what it usually is an that's scary. I wish I were a more selfish person then I would simply not care but since thats not how Devaughn "Don't be jealous, Cuz De Won't Tell us" Barden was created *crosses arms*



So what happens now?

Well I'm still in love
Still fighting for every inch (that's what she said, but not what I meant asshole lol!)
Still hoping that love will actually WIN
and finally I'm STILL FLY

Whoops almost forgot, if your reading this and somehow didn't see the other blog, go check it out! I promise it'll get only get better just like this blog http://treumemories.blogspot.com/

Love

Ever since coming back I have just been just so ridiculously taken by my girlfriend, I think that the South American trip made me realize just how important she is to me and ever since I've been back I have been finding different ways to show her just how much she means to me. Honestly sometimes I feel as if I'm going overboard but really is that a bad thing when it comes to the person who has your heart? I don't think so obviously though I do have built in measures to keep me from getting to corny, but sometimes I may put a toe over the line, and then I'll ask her if it's just to much. Well-let me tell you about my girlfriend, my partner, and my lover. Her name is Michelle and she's from west Philadelphia born and raised, just kidding she is from Massachusetts; I know what you guys are thinking but but that's red sox/patriots country to that I respond with I don't care. Sometimes we argue about which is better, but at the end of the day I only like MA because that's where my baby is from so that's all I have to say about that.


The night before last we took a stroll down memory lane via old pictures, and we talked about our first date, the same butterflies I had then were the same butterflies, I had when we we're talking about it that night. I remember not being able to sleep the night before because I was so nervous. I had only been that nervous before twice in my life, the night I got the award at the Director's guild and the next week when I gave a speech at my premier at HBO.

Now I'm getting off topic because while I'm trying to write this entry my sister's bum ass boyfriend is playing the worst possible rap a smart fan would want to listen too. I mean the garbage they listen to has absolutely no redeeming value and has zero substance. All of it sounds like white noise to me and sometimes when they talk all I hear is white noise because they are no longer speaking a language I recognize. I do not mean to come across as someone who follows the rules of the queen’s English I speak my fair share of slang as well, but I recognize the more you use it. The dumber you appear to be to anybody with half a brain and is not of the project mentality. When I and she were speaking the other night I told her that I was ashamed of the situation I grew up in and that it is playing a large role in why I'm always trying to work or at least due something to help me better my position because I do not want to end up back there, and I really don't want to bring my wife into that situation, that environment stunted me in some many ways that I don't think I will fully understand how until I put alot of distance between me and my past.

Alright to get back to talking about my wonderful girlfriend, When I was making my way back to America there was only two people I wanted to see and one person on my mind almost every minute of everyday. When I was exhausted both mentally and physically it would be Michelle that would tell me everything would be alright, and I would make it home and even when I thought there was no way it was her faith in me that gave me that extra push when I did not have anything in me. Some nights I would on walks through such beautiful scenery and I would think to myself that Michelle would love this, and I wish she were here so I could hold her hand and experience this with her.

This dude is annoying the fuck out of me, one would think that if my headphones are loud enough for you to hear them that it's probably because your music is bothering me and I don't want to hear it or I wouldn't drown it out with my own music. It surprises me how some people seem to not have manners, I mean if I were a guest in someone's house I would definitely walk on egg shells until they let me know it was ok to do certain things, maybe I am being unreasonable but honestly I do not believe it to be so.

I could keep righting about Michelle but she's my love and I'm not sharing nyuh :)

Silly yet Magnificent, Sillnificence?!

My name is Devaughn and that is all you need to know
But since this is a blog that previous statement is just not going to fly
Don’t call it a comeback, I been here for years (like twenty five…….in a row)

I don’t have many things in my life but the things I do have I am grateful for.
When the world gives me a reason to frown, the love of a good woman gives me a reason to smile.

A man is nothing without his word; I learned that from a very important woman, my mother. As a genius and voice of a generation it’s part of who I am to say absolutely ridiculous shit while maintaining the ability to wow folks with just how deep I can think.

I had an interesting conversation earlier with a cousin, a conversation he should have had with his father but since I was the oldest person around he came to me and ask.
He wanted to know about sex so I just told him that the only thing you need to know about sex was covered in ghostbusters by Egon, “Try to imagine all life as you know it stopping instantaneously and every molecule in your body exploding at the speed of light.“ I’m a great cousin ☺

Rather Unique (Throw Back entry)

This was an entry from a while ago that never made it


I'm Rather Unique

But attending hampshire I'm feeling less and less, to know is not enough is the motto; but it’s seemingly not the practice at least that’s how it seems to me. When I wake up and I don't give a damn about the day or the work, I'm the one that has to deal. The division one requirements are a joke, I'm going to lay it down flat, I despise the process and it's probably the number one reason the retention rates are so low. Nothing like having to jump through hoops to get a person thinking about what the hell one is doing with their time and money


Rather Unique

I despise having to explain myself and the way I think to folks who just don't get it; listen the way you've been teaching isn't the way I've been learning there is no disconnect. I'm to specifically specific to walk a path not my own; that's just the way it is, nothing personal.

Rather uniquely I exist

When I think of myself and how I fit in at Hampshire,
I always come to the same conclusion; I manage to both fit in and remain an outsider simultaneously. Is it a space unique to myself? I don’t think so, but I am unique to the space.


Rather Unique


When I think about how I learn, I think about wild animals being free to do their thing. I guess that's a funny way to think about it, but animals are at their best when we let them do what nature made them to do, and I think I am the same way. When wild animals are domesticated some of them accept it quickly as a way of life; But then there are others who resent their captivity and are never fully domesticated: I have felt like this everyday I have woken up on this campus. I am sure the animals that are born in captivity don't miss the outside, but every once in a while their genetics will make them remember what they their minds have forgotten. A lion will always be a lion no matter where that lion happens to be, and I feel the same way here.

So I'm bored lets see what I can come up with

So I have my film Noir playlist blasting and lets get it on

I woke up this morning with the foul taste of the night before on the tip of my tongue.
Her name escapes me, but the memory of her lingers in an out of my mind.
The sweat trickles down my face as I sit up and say hello to the streets.
Rain hits the window as I pull back the curtains to get a better view.

I try to remember her name as I stare out at the world; a knock on the door breaks my concentration. The clock tells me all I need to know about the person on the other side of the door. Under the bed is where I keep my agony, it seems only right since that’s where I keep my monsters as well. Fingers crawl underneath the right side until they meet a familiar friend. I remember the way she moved through the crowd, like a feather in the wind. The knocks become angrier, but they do nothing to quicken my step, time waits for no man but whoever is on the other side of that door will wait for me.

I count four more knocks each quicker then the last and finally a thud as I finally reach the door, when you’ve seen as many sunsets as I have you know that a few minutes usually don’t make a damn bit of difference because if it’s important, it’ll find a way to happen.




The Night Before


Lights to bright shine through blinds that see too much, I’d rather have a window that faced a brick wall or at least one across the way from a pretty dame with a killer smile.
The Phone rings as the neon lights from the dive next door and the streetlight play tag.
This is my life I think to myself as I pick up the receiver “This is my life” I say aloud to no one in particular as I place the receiver back down, I let my hand rest on the top of it.

Defining Moments

So the next couple of posts are from journals i kept from my time abroad


I heard once that life is just one moment after another, now that I’m half a century old I’m starting to think about what exactly that means and more importantly what it means to me. I’ve had a few defining moments through the years the biggest moment was the one when I knew for sure that things would never be the same and that they would never be like they were; How are you supposed to respond in a moment when you know that childhood is fleeting and adulthood is pressing.

What is in a moment? I still find myself asking that question and the only thing that I can come up with is that a moment can only be truly defined by the person or people in it. So what will my defining moment be? I’ve had many but none that define me and that’s because I refuse to be definable by any moment. I suppose I just contradicted myself since I have been talking about moments and how they affect my life. I think I am going to need to have a few more moments before I can tackle this again

Ugh

I have the feeling I am not getting the whole story here and the sucky part is the longer I don't know the worse it's going to be because what your mind does'nt know it makes up. I just feel like it's ok for me to talk when I am upset about things but when it's her I'm left to guess. If she were in my shoes and I was being all vague about things she would probably have questions or worries too.

Honestly I just don't know what the hell is going on and its really starting to wear on me

In The Dark

Deja Vu is a bitch but gut instinct tells me I am about to be in the dark for a while and then the light is going to come on and I am going to be exceptionally pissed, how do I know this?

I got the same exact feeling last time, I'm talking about a few "last times" all of which
if comes to pass those individuals don't get three strikes they're done at two, it's harsh but I do not play games and do not wish to involve myself with people who do.


Since I am in such a hostile mood today, come one, come all


Let's put it all out there, you got a problem with me, then I have a problem with you

If you wanna get loud we can get loud, but I assure you, I will spare no feelings

Beinvenido

Dear Monsters,



Be Patient




:)




Actually you guys are going to get an entry today, I didn't think I would write in here today
but you know what the sun is shining and the breeze is beautiful; usually it's one without the other. I usually hate the bright ass sun because it is almost never comfortable in any sense.
I think what makes me dislike direct sunlight is the humidity and the feeling like I'm being cooked alive. I know most of you know the feeling but I really seriously can't stand it, so it was a really big thing for me to go and basically bake in the sun for at least four or five hrs the other day. I am very good at hiding when I'm mega po'd honestly I wasn't thrilled to be going but I went because I feel you can't make memories if you don't do anything . I had a good time but knew I would regret it. Back when I was younger I used to be teased about how dark I was.
I have never been able to ignore it for long because someone always finds a way to make me remember how dark I am. For those keeping score the quickest way to get on my bad side is to ask me for a picture or make any dumb comments whether you meant them or not about my color. That is one thing I don't joke about it and no, I don't know how to take a joke about it so don't try and be the first one to get me to laugh about it because then you'll more then likely be the person that bears the brunt end of that joke,i assure you


So in closing, there's a reason I stick to the shadows.......it doesn't hurt me, doesn't burn me
and most importantly assholes tend to congregate in the light


V/Gh/O

First Things first

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Tonite has been pretty wonderful, in total I wrote about 32 pages today and hopefully I can knock out 16 more tomorrow. I sat on my bed looking out at the quad on this rainy night and thought about a lot of things. I had to take a time out today since I'm usually pretty mellow about things its kind of a big deal when I have to raise my voice, it is not something I enjoy doing. I thought about this weekend and how right it felt, nothing really mattered except those moments. When I lost my way today that was one of the things I thought about to bring me back to myself. I'm a little disappointed in myself though since I make it a point to let other people piss each other off and to not let it bother me at all; as cliche as it sounds life is to short and whatever your mad about probably is important enough to really be mad at. I'm not perfect by any means I get frustrated with things at time but I know that frustration passes just like everything else and 9 times out of 10 if I'm frustrated I am probably not thinking clearly.

If you are expecting a witty clever anecdote I'm afraid I do not have one for you this entry
but stay tuned knowing myself as I do it won't be long before this place is full of them


Stay Fly

V.Gho

Must be something in the air

Since everybody has made the shit list today, I have no idea what's going on with everyone today but I most definetly will not put up with their shit. It is almost as if everybody went to sleep peaceful and woke up this morning and decided they were going to see who could piss me off the most. I want to say congrats to all of you since not one of you managed to piss me off but ALL of you as a whole did. So all of you as a whole can fuck off, when you ladies and gentlemen want to act like civil human beings we can talk until then keep your negativity to yourself, I don't want it and I damn sure don't need it

Ugh

I'm in blog mode, I forgot how fun these can be and since I have the trusty laptop,
I'll be doing a lot more of it. The one thing I can never figure out here at blogspot is the damn formatting. My posts always look like a game of tetris and it annoys me just like a game of tetris.
Btw the secret to winning a game of tetris is just holding the game upside down, try it, seriously!


So we're coming up on the end of semester and let me tell you guys it's been one hell of a trip.
I have had alot of great memories this year and I can only hope that next year brings even more roller coaster like thrills. More yellow bike robbing, tv borrowing, wei cooking, noah freestyling,and frances being the glue that kept us all together.

This summer is looking to be pretty fun, I would be lying if I said I wasn't a weeee bit nervous.
Not only is it anew place but it's a new country and to be honest I'm more nervous about the fact that i'm relatively sure i'll be the first black person a lot of these people will have ever seen
I've been to the middle of the world and back seemingly but there is no weirder feeling in the world then being the only person that looks like you. It was cool and weird on the reservation though because the little kids were pretty funny about it and the tweens thought i was a rapper and the teens we're cool since most of them had been off the reservation and we're used to non natives. The adults were fucking hilarious though, when I was on the reservation, their was some Christian group out there at the same time fixing houses and alot of the adults thought I was with them and they would always ask me when I was coming to fix their roof. I actually miss Pine Ridge alot and secretly that's where I'm hoping to teach video and film.

ok I need to get back to work


Stay Fly

V.Gho

It's been a long time

What do I want?

I don't ask much from life and I don't ask much from the people in my life
It is just how I am, even though I often do complex things; yet I live a simple life out of the public eye. I'm a truth teller not because it's the right thing to do but because it's easier to say what you feel then it is to conjure up some fake emotion. I respect my friends enough to pull no strings and pull no punches. what I see is what they get. I don't volunteer information because for the most part whats in the past is in the past and if it had any bearing on the future folks would already know. With that said I can be an open book but only if the question is ASKED;I'm sorry I just don't randomly talk about myself. It's not very becoming of a gentleman.


So what is so important about my past, if I'm not talking about it there's probably a good reason. I don't really get it, I don't speak much about the past because I'm trying to make memories with you in the present.

The only time I asked about the past was one time specifically because that particular part always seems to keep coming up randomly and it was making me an bit uncomfortable; so what do I do? I ask you not for an entire timeline but if this part of the past is trying to come back and be a part of the present, you told me what the deal was, I accepted it and here we are

So I guess what's annoying, yes annoying is that the past is a massive thing and I don't know how to blurt out parts of it without being asked a question. It's like answering a question without knowing the question and as awesome as I am I can't read minds to give the answers that you want.

Handsome Fighters Never lose battles

So here we are
Here I am & Here you are
I admit I have missed you
have you missed me?
Before you answer just know that.....I saved a ton of money on my car insurance



Now that I'm done trying to be funny, alot has been going on.

but first I have to knock down a few more pages of a paper

so i'll continue this post in a bit and with some good things I swear